Sometimes you fall. You scratch your knees, and it hurts. You are experiencing pain, and as long as you deal with it in that moment, it may sting for a short while, but then you move on. If you don't hold on to the pain, you will be fine.
But what happens, if you don't manage to deal with the pain completely? It will later come back, and rise up to the surface to remind you that you still have something to heal. Unfortunately, the pain is also turning into suffering for you, because you are keeping a part of your experience in a place that you feel safer with, but nevertheless it is an unenlightened, dark space.
When pain turns into suffering, your connection with your Soul is like a radio transmission that is interfered with, sounding a lot like scratchiness. From this place, you can't really reach for your natural state of joy and peace, you feel drained, and you even experience a dark time in your life, leaving you to believe that you are alone and unloved.
Sometimes the best way to deal with pain is to keep it buried. It is a defense mechanism that helps you survive a traumatic event. Because the trauma that causes the pain is too big for you to be able to handle it, you take your time, and you allow only some feelings to surface. Then you cover up other pieces of this pain, and as time passes, you may think that it has disappeared.
If later on, you're able to access that moment when the trauma appeared into your life, and you heal it, then you can move on, and live happily and undisturbed. But the hardest time comes, when you haven't dealt with the whole trauma that was created, and you end up having to face this trauma and the ensuing pain, over and over again.
This is the most likely scenario that many human beings go through, and sometimes it takes a lifetime to go back to the initial innocence. But you should not feel discouraged.
The experience you are having as a human being, allows for such slow development, and processing of the pain that was created in your life. You go through life, accessing times of joy, love and innocence, but they are combined with experiences of pain. This is not happening because you need to be punished for anything. It is only happening because you are exploring a way to deal with the pain, and gain an awareness of your wholeness.
In reality, you can never be hurt. Every experience of life you've ever had, is going to point to that, no matter how big the trauma of your life has been. When you leave this body, you will return to the full awareness of your Wholeness, and you will know that while this journey has been rough in some spots, it was also only temporary and illusory.
So, as you review your past experiences of pain, and you feel how deep this pain has affected you, just remember that you can let it go. Right now, you can release any wounds, and scars that you've been carrying around for such a long time. Give them the appropriate reverence for the wisdom and teaching they have brought into your life, yet you don't need to hold on to an image of yourself being wounded and scarred.
Next, forgive yourself for believing this story for such a long time. Forgive the people who played a role in the experience of pain and wounding that you've endured. Forgive the time that you have invested into healing this part of yourself. And forgive that part of you, who felt frightened and alone when you've experienced the trauma. It is all part of the past. You can embrace a new life now; a life that is pristine, and one that was never corrupted from its perfection. Smile, and be well!